The Bourne Ultimatum

He chooses to follow his honest conviction against the flow of the world and what it values, rebelling against what he is told is his new truth, and instead fights to find who he is. His conscience leads him to find his true identity.
So do you choose to follow that thread of conviction you inherently know to be right, though it goes against what makes you comfortable? Do you instead adhere to the stickiness of God's word and rule - fighting against the lower nature? The nature that tends to war against God and separates us from His goodness...
Jason Bourne is in all of us. He is a fighter, and could carry his training to great exploits, doing what few others could do... But though he's been brainwashed, the truth remains in a voice inside his head. "You were not meant for this. This is not life." Just like him, we have that choice, and we can choose to ignore that voice, or instead follow it and become aliens, join a group of people who are despised for their beliefs and standards... Follow the world, or your purpose, which is in God alone.

Hard choice?

What if it means giving up what you think means the most to you? Your reputation, your job, your friends, your pride?

God will wreck your life, and send you on the run. Don't believe it? Look at those who were closest to Jesus on this earth. They followed His example, and were imprisoned, tortured and murdered. Yet still they counted it all gain. Look at the stories of people beyond the typical American Christian, in history's chronicles, and today around the world there still are disciples of Christ laying down their lives like He did.
But to them, it is worth it. They know that to obey the world, they would be rejecting a higher authority, a God who is worth dying for. Yes, it is hard, I know. Sometimes doubt nags my mind, and I wonder at the cost. Then I remember the scars that were taken undeservedly so that I could have life.
To be who God purposed you to be may not seem as exciting, perhaps it may turn out to be very tough, but think of who you live for, and why.

So the question: Jason Bourne or David Webb? Who will you be?

Are you going to follow the truth or what others tell you is acceptable?
Find who you are. The rest will follow.

In a younger world

"If God made me the way I am should I always like who I am? Who is it I am becoming? What if it is nothing like what I am meant to be and how can I tell?!?" - my thoughts

These questions cut closer to who I am as a man belonging to Christ, and not so much what I chose to do. Why I live, and what I think, and what it is I truly care about... are not those things more important in the long run?

I saw Switchfoot in concert for the first time two weeks ago. The song This Is Your Life was one of the highlights of a very energy charged concert. That message that stood out above all the lights and the performance. (Cool as the concert itself was, I got to meet them afterwords! They are some very cool guys... But I am getting off topic)
This morning before our pastor's message that song was played, and the question asked. "Are you who you want to be?" (I highly suggest watching this mornings message, and the past sermons in the series! You can watch them all online until Saturday the 8th: Southeast Christian Church - Sermons)
So I guess I have to ask myself that question, looking deeper than what I do (My work), or how others perceive me, but to really seek out the man I am inside. I am afraid of what I may find.

I guess we all feel that way at times. It is like we would rather be someone else than face who we truly are. But God gave us our own self to work with, and not another. In turn He gives us the power to choose everyday what will define us. He does give us passion for life at times, and wake up calls to our flesh at others... This is a part of living, and growing in Christ-likeness. It is an everyday choice. So perhaps in answer to those cutting questions, I can say both yes and no. We don't have to like who we are, when we realize we have become something that displeases God. It is in those times we should go to Him and pray for forgiveness, and ask for a will to change our habits daily. But at the same time, we need to thank God for his plan and purpose in making us who we are, and seek to use the gifts he has given us for His glory and pleasure.

For me, I have been placed in a field of work that I know I have been called in, and that I love. But I can't forget how much of a responsibility I have to be, as well as do what God has called me to. I am not just working to become a film-maker, I am working to become the man God has been forming in me from the foundation of the world, and no matter what I do, that is what will live on in eternity.

Eternity is a very long time to waste.